Jesus Saviour of My Soul

Yesterday night I was at the music team discipleship and it was totally awesome. Apparently our Paradise worship team has already started to write new songs and work on the new album and we are amongst the first to get to enjoy them! Let me tell you, the songs are amazing. Way more better than the previous albums (Well, at least 3 songs because they only played 3).

Anyway, it was Pastor Mark Anderson’s message after the praise and worship that stroke my heart. His message was about the parable of the talents where 1 master is going away for some time and he gave one of his servants 5 talents, 2 for the next one and 1 for another one. When the master came back, the first and second servant presented twice the amount of talents the master gave them because they invested it and got returns. The last servant just buried that only talent he has and just gave his master back that talent. And you guys know what happens next (The master got pissed off and threw him out of the house).

Yes, we’ve been told before about this parable and we know how we should use and expand our God-blessed talents. But what Pastor Mark gave after this was interesting.

Why is the servant of 1 talent wrong?

HE GOT THE WRONG MOTIVATION

He only does things because he was afraid of his master.

HE GOT THE WRONG UNDERSTANDING

He thought it would be good to protect his master’s property and didn’t know the master’s purpose for giving him that talent and hence didn’t make good use of it.

HE DIDN’T UNDERSTAND HIS POSITION

He think he wasn’t important in his master’s eyes because he was only given 1 talent compared to the other servants.

This 3rd point really strike me because as a guitarist myself I tend to always compare myself with the other guitarist and kept thinking “Why am I not as good as him?”, “Why can’t I do this and that?”, so many why this and why that sometimes bothers me a lot. I didn’t realize that I’ve been blessed my God to be able to play guitar and blessed that I have such good guitars and gears. I didn’t understand that God has given me this mendate and opportunity to serve in His kingdom here on earth while He is away.

Pastor Mark’s words just left me pondering and reflecting upon myself and now I know how important I’m to God despite my guitar skills and how much God has entrusted me with the ability to play guitar for His kingdom. I’m honoured to be blessed with all these from God and I’m gonna stop comparing myself and the others and stop the thoughts that I’m not up to the standards.

Perhaps it’s too late to do this now but I have a new resolution for this year before the year ends: I WANNA IMPROVE MYSELF AND INVEST WHATEVER GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH THE HELP OF HIS STRENGTH AND HOLY SPIRIT TO HONOUR HIM WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE FOR HE IS MY MIGHTY GOD.

[P/S: And so what if I'm 'churchy' or 'raw' when it comes to God and church. Yes, I listen to christian musics and I the main thing for me to play guitar is to serve in church and not showing off myself in any bands. Does that make me a 'holy-wannabe' or naive christian? I would rather behave like a kid and believe that the pastor's preaching as conveying God's word to me rather than seeing it that trying to brainwashing us for his church's benefit. Does that make me look immature? I don't want to judge myself or anyone here. But if you think that quiting to serve because you think that christian musics suck and does not go up to the 'standards' because you compare christian music to those hardcore heavy metal, controversial and anti-Christ musics that mocks God like Marilyn Manson's or leaving the church because of the politics and think that the pastor just wants to brainwash and manipulate you or being a crazy fan over Marilyn Manson's music so that you can relate to the other MM's fans in an effort to save their souls shows that you are a more mature christian and person and is what God want's you to do, go ahead. You know who you are.]